I actually hated myself for this, but I just could not help myself being what I am, a silly fool perhaps to others, but for me, I am just doing my best to live up to God’s expectations.
In a span of twenty years, I helped my sister pay her debts, I rescued my brother, also from his debts, I made his children my scholars, one in high school and one in college, taking up Nursing, I loaned two friends to the tune of $14,000.00, and I had not been paid up to now, I contributed in the weekly dialysis of my brother for almost two years, and many more dole-outs, that I should say, they are countless. The bottom line is, my total debt had reached a staggering high of 50 thousand Dollars, which I figured, were already impossible to erase, considering I have no extra income, and the value of the assets that I had acquired is not even close to 30 thousand Dollars. My faith in the Good Lord Jesus Christ kept me going. Every night I still get a restful sleep, because I believe tomorrow is another day. The only process I have used, to deal with the most difficult situation in my life was to throw away all my fears, except my fear of hurting my God. When we truly understand how much God loves us, what can we be possibly afraid of? For God has not given us a spirit of fear and timidity, but of power, love and self-discipline (2 Timothy 1:7, NLT).
When I said I should not be afraid, I meant there must be solutions to all our problems. I had to throw away my fear of facing my problem After having decided to throw away my fear of not being able to pay everyone, I resolved to change. I realized that I can always help people, if not financially, then in other ways, such as spending time to listen to their worries and help them find solutions. I can still prove to my God that He can use me to bring about His Glory to everyone. I managed not to add anymore to my debts that had