In 2009, so many things happened that contributed to the resurfacing of my depression:
1. Family Matters- My father’s business suffered a major setback and our family lost our savings. The state of being not financially secure in a foreign land without much financial assistance from relatives created an air of uncertainty in the home. Constant arguments ensued which made family life very difficult. I found it hard to concentrate on my studies study. Daily worries became too heavy to bear. My motivation to study and even to keep track of my work suffered. I felt very tired and useless that I am unable to help meet the needs of my family.
2. School Matters- The adjustment to college life became difficult for me. The transition from the small high school where everyone knew and depended on each other to this big school where one becomes just a face in the sea of faces, wherein one has to become very responsible and independent overwhelmed me. I knew that the school offers counseling but I was too ashamed to tell anybody of my concerns. I started missing classes in the hope that the problem would go away but the anxiety and impending reality became too much to bear.
All these brought me back to a state of depression that resulted in the need to go back to Hong Kong and seek medical help. My doctor has certified that I am well and can go back to schooling. He has placed me on mild medications to counteract depression and will monitor my progress through regular communications.
Today, I am so much better. I am confident that I can handle the responsibilities and pressures of schooling. I have also matured and have learned many crucial skills such as; time management, problem solving, and social abilities which as a result will affect my study habits in a positive manor. I now look at life differently and I am able to accept things more easily knowing that difficulties can be surpassed; and